Thursday, January 29, 2009

A Mother's Guilt

Alaina is home sick today – with a stomach bug.  I got a phone call shortly after dropping her off at daycare that she had thrown up 3 times already.  I called Palmer and sent him to pick her up and he is staying home with her today.  But there is that gnawing in my gut that I should be there with my little girl.

 

I called to talk to her, hoping to offer some comfort, but instead I received the guilt.  Her little sad sick voice saying “Mommy, I need you. I really really need you.”  L 

 

I know Palmer is completely capable of taking care of her and offering her comfort.  But caring for a sick child is a task that I have a hard time relinquishing.  The babes always want their momma when their sick. 

 

If it wasn’t for so much work to do, and having missed so much time here in the last month or so, I’d be home with her.  But I just can’t justify leaving work when she has a parent there already to care for her.

 

Man, I’m bummed.

 

2 comments:

*Jess* said...

Its so hard, momma :( Big hugs!

BTW, I cant' leave comments on your healthy blog for some reason? Does anyone else have this problem?

corscorp said...

(((hugs))) Momma. I hope she's feeling better now.

No, Jess, I can't comment on the health blog either. You can comment on her SOHL thread if you like. I think Ana has done that, and I keep meaning to.

Love you, Al. ♥